Life-Saving Bouy

I hope that, I can be your life saving buoy.

One that you can hold on to,

whenever you are feeling helpless.

I learnt...

from the previous events,

that I should not give you empty promises.

I also learnt that...

The hurt can't just diminish,

from a single word of apology.

Thus...

I will try to be there,

for you.

like how you were,

for me.

If possible,

I would like to be the life-saving buoy,

you can rely on,

you can hold on to,

you can grab on,

when you are helpless,

when your legs couldn't feel the depths of an ocean of worrying,

when you meet something bad.

Touch wood.

May I?

4 Monkeys and a Huge Watermelon

4 monkeys chance upon a huge watermelon.
They decided to bring it home for dinner.
Each agreeing to carrying the watermelon with equal strength,
they headed back home.

Some time later, a monkey had a thought.
"What if I use less strength to carry it?
The other 3 will still be able to carry it nevertheless."
With that, it uses less strength to carry the watermelon.

Never did he knew that,
the 3 fellow monkeys actually thought of the same thing.
Without enough support,
the huge watermelon fell and broke into pieces.

Moral of the story?
Go figure.

I'mma.

I have decided.


I'mma knock on that door first thing tomorrow.


You feel free to lock me out.
I'mma still try my best to reconnect our bonds.

In Pain... Myself and I

I feel like clutching my chest.
There is no physical injuries
that could be seen through the naked eyes.
for these are...
marks of confusion in the heart.

Wishing to take another step,
to stretch out that hand,
to knock on that door,
to say hello,
to have fun again...
together.

...yet so hard...

It is so easy to turn off every humanity that's left in me,
but she won't allow it.
It feels so good just to throw everything away,
but that just isn't me.

Always warped and tortured by the split personalities,
I couldn't help but fight.
So near the battle almost ended,
yet I know that it is merely beginning.

Couldn't we go back to being friends again,
you and I?
It seems like yesterday,
the joy of calling each other bro-s.

A reply for each sms-s would suffice,
noting that,
you have truly forgiven me
for the wrongs I did.
for being the wretched person I was,
I am.

Who's winning now?
Between myself and I...
lets hope that evil shall not triumph,
for I would lose her,
you,
everything,
and myself.
















I am so alike to my dad...
Words, actions and thoughts never seems be in synced.
Words came out first,
unthoughtful of.
Actions came out next,
unthoughtful of.

When thoughts finally came out clearly,
it was all too late.
But most of his words, actions and thoughts are all about his family,
Pure concern for each member.

I would really like to have a discussion...
face to face.

Now I understand, what is it like to be the ones around me,
constantly trying to enter the icy fortress - I built around myself.
And I also understood that... it isn't the whole world who turned against me,
but I...
who turned against the whole world,
shutting all out,
flipping off the switch of my humanity.

Shattered...

I can hear so many hearts being shattered...
one by one...
all because of a jerk.

I really am not cut out for anything, like dad said.
I really am.... a failure.

Friends, ties, bonds, family.... F.O.S

In this world, there are no such things as friends and comrades.
Everything is merely a facade we choose to believe in.
By calling you a friend, I actually laid myself bare, entrusting my trust in you.
A fool, I was.
A genius, you were.
Friends are merely, nicknames that we call each other.
Tools of conduct.

I was once a person who would try to break all kinds of rules and regulations because some were really stupid, set by fools.
Fine. Let me stick to the rules and regulations for a change. I will set my own too.
I will set the rules, to a point that you are unable to argue.
Break any one of the rules, I will make sure you have a pleasant dream in MMU.

From now on, beware of me. Since you used me, took me for granted, I will still try my best to please you.
But beware, since you touched a side of me I held back for so long. I will make sure that you kiss that fury.

Don't worry, its nothing personal.
Friends? :)

We are merely Humans

Flesh and blood,
merely protected by a thin piece of skin,
we are nothing,
but Humans.

Far away from God,
we are unable to throw lightning like Zeus,
divide the sea like Poseidon.
we are nothing,
but Humans.

We don't use our brains,
to figure,
to think,
of the others,
except for ourselves.

How selfish,
indeed,
we are.
For we are nothing,
but humans.

Failing to plan,
is equal to
planning to fail.

Failing to think,
is equal to
thinking of failing.

We are nothing but humans,
for we cannot consider things that
we we once comfortable with,
in a logical way.

We are indeed, merely humans.